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Jul. 19th, 2005 @ 12:12 am -Update-
To All my friends, and Acquintances:

I want you all to know that I love you dearly. So you Know, I'm not offing myself, for those of you who always think the worst. No, I'm doing the exact opposite, I'm going to live. I'm going to go and enjoy my life and make up for all the past shitt I've missed. I've lived in a shadow that has brought me down, adn Now I am starting anew. I'm strarting fresh.
I've finished with alot of things, and I'm moving on. For those of you, I hurt, I'm sorry. I don't know if you will forgive me or not, but this is just something that I have to do. I've thought about it for a while and I am 100% certain in my decision.
To all of you who still have some buisness to do with me, my e-mail is shaado@shaadodreams.com

*I love you all and wish you the best in life.
To those of you this will not reach, Please pass it on*

Brightest Blessings-

x-posted where you all will see it
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Walking Dreams
Jun. 30th, 2005 @ 12:23 am (no subject)
Current Mood: amusedamused
HAHA. I was re-reading my last dream. I had almost forgotten about it completely. I remember feeling so obsessed with that random strange Guy. But i guess, I've found my replacement :) hehe. Anyways. I wanted to share two other dreams. One I posted on my journal a while back about sparky, and one that I had the other night.

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What the fuck was I on THAT night. Whoo Boi!
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Mmmm Pot
Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 05:46 pm Not that anyone is gonna give a rats ass..
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
I had a rather interesting Dream Last night.

I dont remember how it started, but I do remember something about being in some ancient time, and these things were attacking the village. I was hanging out/comforting this other girl when her man went north, and My friend went some place else. The villager soldiers were protecting everyone, and then things died down [whatever was attacking hadnt quite made it into the village.] Anyway the male friend of mine who went basically West, returns. And me and him, adn the chick are sitting on a wooden table/bench [picnic bench] and he hands me this little box that has a chocolate Bear inside [dont ask] So we then went for a walk. [i would also like to mention that am wearing some form of contraption/magnifying glass on my head during half of this encounter] and these things, they are kinda like mutated demon snakes start comming out of the woodwork [literally] so everyone starts panicing, and Me and the guy that I'm obviously inlove with start fighting them off. I grabb up this really awesome dagger and go friggin postal, and I dunno we end up on this deck where there are burning bodies and skulls that when broken spill Gold out. [dont ask]
Then I cant remember much, but entering this room armed with a sword and some daggers, but there is like a door check, like making sure that our weapons arent real, and to test, they stab us in the palm. Both of us get pricked, but its nothing too severe. So anyways, we start fighting, and then it becomes like this occult type place and god only knows what is going on, and suddenly I'm by myself fighting these things that end up just being on tv. who knows.
So then Carrie and I are on this dock surrounded by marsh and stuff, playing some sort of retarded game of toss the plastic bag into the hole [dont ask again] and we are playing and all the suddens he tosses some plastic coin into this nasty water ina plastic pool. I guess thats basically when we atarted playing with the plastic bag. lol. so anyways, I see a white wolf running across the marshes, and he runs up on the dock and is a brown wolf adn i pet his head and he runs off again. So we go back to playing and I have to chase this ball [now its a ball] into this other area, which happens to be like an arcade, and this guy starts teasing me. Its Carries friend, who i think is hot [even tho now, i dont know who the fuck it was] and as we are leaving the dock area, I look at him, and I'm like "Call me sometime to hang out or something" and carrie is rollin her eyes at me [b.c he's normalyl an asshole or whatever, and she cant believe i think he is hott] so the dream shits to just me and this guy and he liesme down on this bed, and the only thought i had was "omg hes going to lie next to me, and cuddle with me" b.c all the sudden he was just a sweetheart. A little something else happens[ nothing like sex or anything] and we get seperated, and the last thing I remember is looking for him.

I woke up feeling extermely empty honestly. And i really wanted to remember who that guy was, because, I know this is gonna sound strange, but i'm in love with him. LOL or atleast what he represented in my dream. When he touched me it felt like I had a warm blanket over my shoulders...and I miss that feeling as soon as i woke up.

Carrie thinks it might be like a sign that I need to find someone who will make me feel that way, since Dave doesnt, and I agree with her. I'm just so obsessed today with whoever that guy was its not even funny...
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Dec. 14th, 2004 @ 04:01 am Corporate sponsorship taken too far
I had one of those weird waking dreams. I'm a hundred percent aware of everything around me in the house... and at the same instant, I'm in a church or a similar place, lying on the floor in the center aisle, and Julie Andrews is singing and dancing her way up the left aisle. But after she reached the front, everything's replaced by the Discover logo on a black background! My dream was sponsored by Discover! What do you think?

(This was a couple of months ago.)
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Wolf 2
Nov. 29th, 2004 @ 01:31 pm Bizarro dream
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Cross-posted to my lj.

Kirazi says:
i had THE weirdest dream.. ever.
You'll come round when you're ready... says:
You'll come round when you're ready... says:
Kirazi says:
Back in time to when Bush was elected for the first time. It was halloween. I was dressed up i baggy black pants and a trenchcoat and was apparently a vampire. And I don't mean that was my costume. Was about to kill this kid when for some reason all these people had me read a paper I'd written as a child... about the upcoming election. It was all about how we didn't need Bush's shit. Then I was o
Kirazi says:
out in the country with my parents and a bunch of people where the form of voting was scribbling the name on a post it and throwing that into a big pile of mud. Gore was there, cast his vote and went around talking amongst people. Bush arrived with an armed guard and I started bitching about how he needed to die. Eventually they found him gunned down on the side of a shed and blamed me because som
Kirazi says:
some guy said it looked like the gun had been fired by someone named Amy. Then I woke up.
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Aug. 27th, 2004 @ 08:07 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: confusedconfused
I had a nightmare last night. I was with someone who was supposed to be a guardian of some sort. There were all these different kinds of poisonous insects attacking me, and she (I think it was a she) either kept them away or told me how to treat the wounds so the poison wouldn't get into my blood. At one point, my guardian got bitten and was passed out.. I dragged her into my mom's bedroom where my mom was sound asleep. Closed the door and locked it. Outside was a snake/dog thing trying to get in. It was hissing under the door and I tried to step on the tip of its tongue that was under the door but it grabbed my ankle and bit me. At which point I woke up..
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Apr. 9th, 2004 @ 02:09 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Forgot to post this the other day... but I'd really like some responses to these.

Yea big surprise I had some damn weird dreams last night.. First, I think I was in my wolf form but I'm not certain. I was with a bunch of other animals and we were trying to get away from a group of hunters who had invaded our woodland home. For whatever reason, the only way for us to get away was to scale this river up the side of a mountain, which had some pretty strong currents. Myself and some other animals were helping a couple of bear cubs up by carrying and passing them along. Once we reached the top, I trailed off from the others and went back around the path I knew the hunters would be taking up the mountain (yes, there was a path, so I have no idea why we swam up the river instead... perhaps not to hind pawprints). There was a row of trees between me and the path and I could already hear and smell the hunters approaching. I was trying to figure out what to do to stop them....

Switch to a completely different setting. I was my human self again, and I was camping with my best friend and some relatives of hers.. Ok not camping, but staying in a very nice ranch-style home high in the mountain wilderness. I'd done something to piss everyone off... I think I accidentally threw something into the grill they had a fire going in/on, and so I went up into the house. There was something in there of a barbie coming to life and trying to kill my friend and I, but since I can't explain it and somehow we miraculously extinguished it, I'll go on. Candi (my friend) and I were outside later and out on the porch at the end of the house. On the other side was a metal pole, like the ones that usually have bus stop signs on them. I was telling Candi that from the window upstairs I had seen such a pole with a pizza box speared on it and two large wolves standing on their hind legs push the box off to get at the pizza. Sure enough, there was a black wolf tied or somehow attached to this pole... he seemed to be sedated or half asleep. Candi grabbed some scissors and cut a few chunks of fur off of his paw (which was so large it barely fit in her hand). I turned around and saw two HUGE wolfens standing about 20 feet away from us by the house, just staring at us. I think they were angry for cutting fur from the sedated wolf (who was nearly as large as them), or for something else, but the sure reason was they were pissed. I poked Candi in the shoulder and we bolted towards the side of the house, heading for the screen door on the other side. The wolfens gave chase. Candi was able to get in the screen door, but I nearly fell trying to get in and just barely threw the door shut in the first wolfen's face. It didn't matter though, because they ended up in the room anyway. Candi and I, and whoever we were staying with (I think it was her uncle or grandfather) were standing there facing them, the uncle/grandfather holding a rifle in his hands. The wolfen both just stood in the door watching us. And of course... my memory fades at this point.
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Mar. 31st, 2004 @ 09:30 am Bizarre dream
Current Mood: confusedconfused
somewhere I was on a mattress floating in water that started getting violent and i was holding for dear life to the mattress and to Sam's hat as I was tossed around and I thought I was gonna drown... and then later I was in the bathroom in my basement at home trying to change my clothes and there were these 2 young teen boys watching be cuz the door was partially broken and I was cursing at them to go look at something else
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Mar. 17th, 2004 @ 07:43 pm Night of March 9/10 2004
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: "Crawling in the Dark" by-- Hoobastank
Went to sleep approx. 10:30PM.

It started off with me and Brady laying on a bed, we were both quite tired. Somehow we managed to lay flat on our backs, both of us, on a twin bed.
I knew we were at his house, but there were no walls, everything was blank except his bed and us.
He eventually rolled over and hugged me, and I rolled over too so that we were spooning. My back to his front. We fell asleep and nothing more.

When we woke, I kissed him good bye and drove home-- there was no road though. I can’t even recall getting into the car.
Arriving home Mum quickly asked me where I have been all night, I said that I spent the night at Brady’s and told her that I was too tired to drive home that night.
She started yelling at me, then Smokey (my cat) came into the ‘room’ (no walls yet again) and she spoke, but yelled at me too. Both were yelling at me out of sync, but still on the subject on how irresponsible I am and how careless and thoughtless I can be at times.
Then, Da came into the ‘room’ with a shot gun. He asked me where I was last night too, I answered him the same way.
He shot me.

I wake at 6:30AM.
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Loki and moon
Feb. 29th, 2004 @ 12:00 pm Dream
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Kirazi says:
I was a pup, or a cub (I might have been in my tiger form but I really can't remember) and everyone in the group there was saying I was a legend and a hero, though I didn't know why. I was supposed to be but I hadn't done anything that made me feel like I was. So I guess I went off to find whatever was supposed to make me live up to it. And I was going around with someone but I have no idea who...
Kirazi says:
and then I forgot a lot of it, ended up standing on my front porch at night and it was snowing and it was the night of my birthday.. and I ran in the house t my room and saw a purple light floating outside the window and ran back outside and saw it fly off down and street and yelled to whoever I was with that I thought I'd found my spirit guide and I bounded off through the snow following it.
Kirazi says:
and thats it
Kirazi says:
what do you think?

Copy/pasted from a convo on msn. So what do YOU think?
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